When we last left our hero, she was climbing back on the wagon and the road. Sleep has been easier than sometimes but it doesn't happen in an instant. I can't be sure what is going on, but I feel like I am dreaming and awake at the same time ... weird dream-images and all, but not really resting. Then I just wake myself.
And how is that I was nearly unconscious at 6:00 and still awake now? (Well, we can thank FMB for pointing out an RT live download site. Can't pass that up for mere depression.)
Somedays being in therapy is walking into a wall of your own pain. And you are not sure how it got thrown up, or appeared, quite suddenly, right in front of you as you are on a full-speed rage, or grappling with the slick handrail of a difficult topic. I feel as if I cried for hours, but I know I did not.
I suppose I might have happened upon (another!!) mother lode of psychic pain.
Given my current circling of despair and feeling generally obzocky, maybe this okay. Maybe I will get through these frustrations and failures.
Five things I did today:
1) Unloaded dishwasher
2) Downloaded RT
3) Straightened kitchen before bed
4) Left the house to go to therapy
5) Mailed stuff.
6) Finished reading a book (number six for the year)
7) Listened to a lot of music
(Not all that productive.)
Things I didn't do:
1) spend any money
3) eat too much
4) get a parking ticket
5) take a nap
6) yoga ;-(