STILL TUESDAY EVENING

Still Tuesday evening.

And another thing. I have fallen back into the alcohol consumption habit. On a general scale, this does not mean that I am drinking the volume I once did. But after the waning months of summer, when things are lax, I find that I think about it on an evening.

I had quite stopped the habit, well, at least it seemed so to me. I was not drinking or having alcohol in the house. I had even stopped thinking about it. But it's back, that impulse or desire to have a glass of something.

Some of it is boredom. Some of it is, maybe being alone, more than being lonely. A time-filler. A buffer. A duller. And an enhancer.

Tonight I had the reason to go out even, and that could have included buying some beer at the least. I am almost out of half-and-half. I even have extra reason, given that I have a toothache and that whiskey is recommended as an analgesic.

I resisted. I am trying to rechannel that energy. I am thinking that, at this point, I need to be as fiscally conservative as I can.

So, I will eat a popsicle (not the ones I really love), play with Emmylou, take some benadryl, and maybe get another chore or two done before I retire. My new, anti-procrastination mantra is: Why not today?