And we were gettin dry"
Which is to say that it is gettin' on Spring maybe. Still a bit chilly here and there, but light out there.
In the desk trenches again, for most of the day, throwing away bank statements and expense reports that are pushing on 20 years old. Ugh. What keeps me going is the idea that I've discussed here a few times, that I am doing this for myself, to make my life better, more comfortable and generally pleasant.
I had a thought the other night that I am only barely putting into practice. That is, that every day I will attempt to do one thing that I am ignoring or avoiding. That thing can be as small as walking across the street to drop off something at the dry cleaner's or as big as cleaning out the refrigerator.
Learning to keep my kitchen clean has made a "brain reprogramming believer" out of me. And the subtle yet present inclination to exercise and/or get out of the house every day is another change of habit.
So, I told myself today that I just had to hang in there, and keep sifting, pitching out, and filing. That besides the neater desk, there could be the added benefit of the task becoming less monumental and less onerous.
I really need a deep sleep, so I took a 50mg trazadone which is hitting me. Wish me sweet dreams!
sweet dreams, sally! my current focus, which seems easier than it is, is to try to look at the ocean every day. I get all intent on various work and forget to plunge my gaze into the infinite azure. Today I was caught in an epic traffic jam (due to a carjacking, of all things) and enjoyed staring at the ocean around Kailua as I inched down the Koolau mountains. I'm not the surfer chick I used to be, especially since my bout with skin cancer. Sail on sally!
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