TAKE IT EASY

I woke up "writing" some sentence about the mechanisms of love. Then I started a dreamy, sleepy dialogue with myself about the difference between mechanisms and mechanics of love and in general. Then I wondered if anyone had written anything with that title. Then I realized I was awake so I got up before 7:00.

(I found a couple of references: Guerlain and Helen Fisher as well as a couple of short or student films with similar titles.)

I know almost everyone else gets up that early to go to work or take care of their family. I had gone to bed after 12:00 a.m. and 6:30 a.m.  is a little early for me. I knew I would be sleepy, seriously sleepy, by the mid-afternoon, but I decided I would push my boundaries a little and see what might happen.

When I am tired, I am a danger to myself and others. I lose things, walk in front of cars, ... kind of like a zombie. So I tend to baby myself about getting enough sleep. On the other hand, I would like to get up earlier and perhaps be more productive. In the interests of re-setting my biorhythms, I started the day.

I am too tired now to accurately assess whether or not I was more productive, but I did write, do a little work with Robert, get out, get up town to meet with Louise on a couple of projects, make it to therapy on time, get home, take a quick nap, make pizzas ... and CLEAN THE KITCHEN after.

Kathleen suggested that I have unreal or high expectations of what a person can get done in a day. Because I live alone, and believe me, Cooder and Miep are neither role models nor competition for activity, I don't really know how much a normal or even a garden-variety depressive person gets done in a day.

I came across this article in the NYTimes:

Go Easy on Yourself, a New Wave of Research Urges.

I read it, but I am too sleepy to really understand it.

Take it easy (not the Eagles).